A Honest Complaint

To whom i ran to,

Kangen sekali ketika saya bisa meluangkan waktu di pagi buta seperti ini untuk menulis hal-hal yang sudah terjadi belakangan ini, tanpa harus khawatir kalau hari ini juga harus kuliah jam 7 pagi. I used to write in a good poetic ways, and never regret to write about it. I also used to write in excessive excitment and somehow you can feel it, even you're just reading it.

Kangen juga dengan institusi pendidikan yang membatasi jam aktif para pelajarnya di kampus/sekolah. Sadar nggak dulu di SMA mungkin rata-rata di sekolah cuma sampai jam 6 trus cabut? Atau mungkin jam 4 bahkan, untuk menghindari macet. Sekarang di kampus? Dont ever think to leave that place under 6 p.m! Even if you did, you have to go back later, even in the weekend.

I really do need times for myself to take a long breath, feed my mind with something other than campus stuff or organization. Heran kenapa dulu masih bisa baca buku sampai tamat tapi sekarang nggak. Kenapa? Waktu kosong buat diri sendiri sudah kemakan dengan kegiatan superpadat timelinedempet-dempet ala kampus. Maksud saya, dulu bukan berarti SMA saya tidak berorganisasi, tapi entah kenapa jadwal yang dibuat di kampus itu selalu memenuhi jam-jam kosong yang seharusnya dedicated to appreciate yourself. Now that you realize, you should really think how much time you already spent in campus (and all kind of campus stuff), and leaves the whole world outside it. Saya kadang suka capek sendiri ngeliat orang aktif banget berorganisasi, dan efeknya juga cuma untuk di lingkungan itu aja, sumpah. Well you've got the pride in that society, and talking about thinking out of the box, YOU ARE IN THE BOX! I mean, at least try something bigger, dont ever forget there is the whole world outside

I used to admire stuff that people always create. Art,photo, music, whatever it is. I missed that stuff. People are just forgetting that they actually have another side of their life that needed to be fulfilled. People are forgetting their hobbies, something that they always confused when they were asked. Why? Because they never do it. Somehow the priority to do this stuff is ranked down below, and you have to sacrifice a LOT of things to raise it.

Saya suka mempertanyakan bagaimanakah kehidupan mahasiswa yang ideal? Apakah harus aktif berorganisasi saja? Apakah harus bisa ke luar negeri paling tidak sekali? Apakah harus punya prestasi dan kejaran selain akademik? Apakah harus naik gunung 3 kali? It is hard to determine how good your life is when you dont have any standard. I always think my life is located right in the middle line of a normal life, and it doesn't really moving towards good or bad in significant ways. It is a safe mechanism to suggest myself that everything is alright, and by doing that way, i never have a long term sadness, or happiness. Saya juga selalu bertanya, apakah ketika mahasiswa ini, adalah saatnya untuk bersenang-senang dan bertualang, ataukah hanya satu fase lanjutan dalam proses akademik setelah SMA. I mean looking towards the life ahead, your life will be spent by working and raising your family. I really need a good life advice.

Well, I am losing my writing structure, and maybe I  need more times to rebuild my writing skill, As the time shows 2.32 a.m, i should stop writing and continue my campus routine. Cheers.

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